there, i said it. ... honestly, i've been meaning to say it/own it for awhile. what to do with this space has been the question of the spring/summer/fall...whatevs.
i don't want to get rid of it. but, do i want be 'a blogger'?
last summer, i was miserable. i was feeling really stuck, at work, at home, everywhere! and, for the life of me, i couldn't get unstuck. one of my sisters (bless her) sat me down for a snap-out-of-it chat, which helped tremendously. (she may or may not have made me cry unhappy tears at my birthday dinner, but that's what big sisters are for, right?)
anyhoo, snap out of it i did. i signed up for alt summit, got myself back into the a classroom (arts, crafts, etc.), and got back into blogging. i was feeling good. i AM still feeling good. but, the blogging part is still hard.
when i relaunched the blog last summer, i took the advice of some of my favorites: keep your blog positive. it seemed timely and, i wanted to keep myself moving forward. so, i'd committed to keeping this a place where only super positive thoughts would be shared. if i wasn't in a positive frame of mind, i wasn't going to blog. some heavy things happened this spring and summer, in the world and in my world, and i felt kind of...weird, not feeling like i could/share them...because of some dumb rule, i was imposing upon myself.
the other bits of advice were around streamlining your content and creating a regular schedule, so your readers knew what to expect. okay. that sounds reasonable.
i wanted to share more of my DIY-like projects. in theory, this was a great idea. in practice, misery. i usually work on projects in the evening, to help me unwind after my stressful day job. evening is not the best time for photography in my apartment, as there's really no natural light at that time. so, i started to work on projects only the weekends, which meant i was losing friend time and had no outlet during the week. (there goes that positivity!)
so. many. rules. AND. i was the only enforcing them. say what?!
i recently came across a better piece of advice. 'it's okay to reject advice.' (aaaaaand, exhale.)
new blogging truths.
- blogs are weird.
- i should speak my truth. good, bad, tough, funny and random. (i totally fell off my spin bike in class the other day. everybody noticed.)
- post when it feels like the thing to do.
- do you.
here we go, kids.